TIME...

We met...We looked...We saw...We fought...We talked...We heard...We listened....We understood.....
Time made us friends, two souls in a sea of people: INSEPARABLE....
Soon time thought, ' lets change course'... and there we sat : BEST FRIENDS against all odds
( amidst a sea of fights and playful teasing we found our island of comfort...)
We adorned it with ornaments not many can afford: love, caring, understanding, a feeling explainable ..only known by us...
Time decided, 'now's the time for some fun'
Before long our thoughts crossed, our eyes met, our hearts struck a chord, our friendship graduated....it became much more:
Our island now paradise, surrounded by the calm seas of love.....
ALAS! There came a storm, trouble in paradise...our ornaments destroyed..our love gone, our comfort: lost!
Now;
We try to understand...We listen...We hear...We talk...We see...We look...We give up...We leave.....
Inseparable souls SEPARATED...
Our seas of love have dried, leaving behind oceans of pain, suffering and destruction.....
Surprising how time suddenly decided to go in reverse...how it decided to make two Stranger meet and fall for each other...only to make them Strangers AGAIN!!
I guess time got jealous... jealous of Our comfort, Our friendship, Our love....of US.....

Because I Love You

I get up every morning, with a new dream in my eyes,
Though not very new, 'cause its always about you.
I get dressed for the day, I take extra care,
In the hope that i will catch your stare.
I know its wrong, to think only of you,
But I can't help it, because I love you.

I feel nervous, as I walk up to class,
Wishing you don't look through me, like I'm a piece of glass.
I stumble in, consumed by your thoughts I slip and let out a small cry,
That's when I catch your eye.
My heart skips a beat, when i see you walk towards me,
As I gather my stuff, whilst on my knees.
I Wish you would say that you felt it too,
I wish because I love you.

You help me up, making me wish you were mine,
I look into your eyes, and surprisingly i see them shine.
I see them shine with a light ,
That has never before been so bright.
I can feel a flush of color in my face,
Red; as though I've just run a race.
I know i should say something to you,
But you leave me tongue tied, because I love you.

You get up, I follow,
But now your eyes have shifted.
Shifted towards something behind me,
I turn, I feel a sudden ache, a tear falls.
She smiles, I smile back,
But I can see you beam with delight.
I wish i could cry, I feel I've lost you,
I wish I could cry, because I love you.

Time passes by, now I cry everyday, I cry every night,
The dream in my eyes is now broken.
The dream in my eyes is now gone,
Just like the sunlight in a storm.
I can see love for you in her eyes,I can see love foe her in your eyes,
Those eyes, which i thought carried love only for me.
I know I've lost you, I know its wrong to think of you,
No matter how hard I try, I can't stop, I can't because I love you.

But soon I realize how you're still mine,
Only now as a friend.
A friend I love, I cherish,
A friendship with no end.
I may be wrong, but I feel that our friendship is strong,
Stronger than any bond.
Now I see a new dream every night,
A dream that's clear and bright.

A dream where we are friends till the end,
A dream where we are there for each other at every twist and bend.
Now I wish you'd never go, 'cause having you here
makes me feel absolutely fine,
Thanks to you, I smile all the time.
Now I smile, because no matter what,
I still love you dear friend, and I always will.

I Saw That Dream One Night

I saw a dream one night,
A dream that felt so right,
A dream that gave me the guiding light,
I saw that dream one night.

There we were on the sands,
Talking as we held our hands.
Being with you made my world so bright,
When i saw that dream one night.

I could spend my entire life with you,
I knew you felt it too.
Seeing my future so bright, I knew everything was right,
When I saw that dream one night.

Then came mom to wake me up,
Not seeing you around literally shook me up,
There lay my dream on the floor
shattered like the remnants of a broken glass door,
I sat up straight on my bed,

Suddenly I began to cry.
Asking myself why, why did I have to dream a dream
that could come true only in my dreams!
Now, I cry everyday, I cry every night,
When I see you in my dream
like I saw the dream that night.

I cry when i see you holding hands with her,
Smiling for her and laughing for her,
Giving all your love to her,
When I know it belongs to me and it is mine.

Oh baby, I miss you so, I love you so,
I wish for you with all my might,
Oh baby, I wish you knew
That my love for you is so very true!

Now I wish that everything was right,
Just as it was when,
I saw that dream one night.

She Learns To Smile

    There she sat, thinking about days long gone. Thinking about the time her first love brought with it her first loss. Thinking about how it left her a stronger person. Though even today it is too painful for her to relive those days, though even today thinking about him brings a tear to her eyes, she hopes that one day she can look back at those memories with a smile. she hopes she can pick up the phone and talk to him ( just like the good old days, one friend to another). She hopes.  It is true that she will always love him but it is also true that she has to move on.

     " Just because tears cloud my eyes now, doesn't mean that i won't bask in the summers of my smile soon"

With these thoughts she begins to hope once again. She hopes for the strength to cry and get over her pain, for the strength to live and enjoy her present and the strength to face her future ( no matter what it brings with it). She gets up, picks up the pieces of her shattered heart, starts putting them back together, one piece at a time, getting ready for a new adventure. She realises that life goes on and chooses to go with it, to run with it, to fly with it! She decides to live it, to experience it and to love it. Yes she decides to love,and to smile...she decides to live.

These words express not only my experience, but the experience of almost every girl who at the age of 18 steps into a new life... Physically a lady in every way, mentally she is yet to reconcile to the loss of (her) childish innocence and embrace the cruel irony of adulthood. Add to this the spice of love, and you have an almost perfect dynamite. It has often been said, 'Oh to be young and to feel the sting of love"... Yes indeed, a sting it is. This sting can be the result of a steadiness present in a close friendship or the heart fluttering at first glance. Like all sins, love tempts; and like all sinners, the heart gives in.
But what happens when we wake up to reality, what happens when 'he' does not make our heart flutter anymore, what happens when we are rendered catatonically confused by this blurred line between friendship and love?
That's when we decide to pick reality. We chose friendship and walk away from our world of romance and fluttering hearts. It is at times like these when we need to muster our strength, channel our energies and move forward. 
Sure, it is a process that involves having our heart broken. Sure it involves sleepless nights, marathon counselling sessions with our 'BFFs' and countless tears. But, it does get better. It is through these nights and these tears that we learn to smile, that 'She' learns to smile. And given a choice, wouldn't we all agree to go through it all one more time, wouldn't we all 'smile', one more time...